So here I am at Hofstra and I am blogging. Writing online makes me feel....

Exposed. I guess you could say vulnerable as well. I am not used to writing for an 'audience'. I mean, I do have a Tumblr and Twitter, but I see them as ways to vent or to communicate with friends or other people who share my interests. I've never before created a blog with the intention to post my own 'work' in it. I really admire people who do that for a living. I think I sort of understand the feeling? I mean, I've danced and performed on stage practically my whole life.  The difference is, I think, that when I'm on stage I am playing a part, a role. I am me, but interpreting something. When you write, it's only you. You're putting yourself, your thoughts, your opinions, out there, for the world (or the Internet, in this case) to see, and judge and critique. I am not even four minutes into this and I want to go back and correct/change some things, but I guess everyone who does this for the first time shares my feelings. It can also be because I am extremely perfectionist, though. I don't know. I feel like lately I've been using the computer a lot more than before to communicate and not just to spend my free time in it. I guess it has to do with the fact that I am so far away from home, and that the easiest/cheapest way to talk to people back in Peru is to do it through the computer. I don't really feel homesick (yet) but keeping in touch with them makes me feel a lot more at ease. And by 'them' I meant my family and friends. God, I wish I could go back and fix that, haha. As I said before, this is my first time freewriting. I can't say that I hate it, though. I mean yeah, it is difficult (and I am going all meta now) but I think it does give the writer the chance to materialize his or her ideas, and no matter how confusing they might be in their head, it can help to give him or her some clarity. I'm onto minute ten now and I don't know what to write about anymore. These last few minutes are making me seriously doubt my earlier statement about liking freewriting. I work better with an assigned topic or theme. But where is the fun in that, right?